of swollen lips and widening horizons

so i woke up this morning to a wonderful sunny day and ginormous upper lips. somewhere in my sleep last night, it seems like i have gone for a silicone injection on my lip by way of an insect bite, and it is how it is now - plump and red. now i know how angelina jolie half-feels like. LOL. not really funny, but it looks funny. now the alabama trip is cancelled, and i might take the first benadryl pill in my life - if the swelling does not go down after all these cold compresses.

on to more pressing matters however, an exciting window of opportunity has opened, and i am scared/excited/worried/excited. well, mostly excited. after 5 years, the UN has finally called me!!!! i remember being fresh out of nursing school writing an email to this lady at the UN Philippines expressing my desire to work for them. i spent a good hour drafting that letter, and another one contemplating whether to send it or not, knowing full well i was unqualified then. i never sent the email, saved it in my drafts where it still resides to this day. 5 1/2 years later, i'm 26 and very much qualified with a 5-year nursing experience and finally i got the email!!! i was so excited i was jumping up and down in the shower. thank u UN, for even taking time to look at my profile, it feels humbling and my heart is filled with a happiness u can only get after getting a lifelong wish. haha. so poetic.

but anyway, i might get sent to SUDAN! main reason why i am scared/worried. why not Tahiti, or Haiti, or the Fiji islands? because i's where i'm needed. My God and I already had a verbal agreement when i signed up for this thing, that if his will is for me to go, and i get an email, then i would drop everything and follow where he leads me. and oddly enough, im at a time in my life where i can drop everything! meant to be? who knows. but i'm a mere follower of the mighty God who brought me here on earth for a purpose. who am i defy the very purpose of my existence??? He has proven all along that he is faithful, and he takes care of the littlest details, so i am not afraid.

i dont know how the next week would go, i can only imagine what might not happen. but surely there's an agonizing wait that follows. whichever happens, i'm ready.

now only if this damned lip cooperates and gets better...